I'm All By Myself

It's really quite in the house right now, maybe too quite.  I don't feel like being alone.  Yes I have to exercise and finish taking down the Christmas stuff but I don't want to be alone.  I went to make myself a cup of hot tea and while I was in the room I thought I could really eat some food.  No I'm not hungry at all but have the urge to eat.  I have discovered on my journey that when I don't want to be alone I eat.  This is why the team approach really works!  So I kept saying to myself make your tea and go blog.  Blogging is a good way for me to express myself and by putting these feelings down on paper I can realize what I'm doing that makes me eat and put on unhealthy weight.  Yes I just got through another hurdle!  Wow losing weight is not about not eating at all.  So all the people out there who used to say, "Just close your mouth and don't eat" don't know at all what they are talking about.  It's way more than the food, it's why are we eating the foods and when.  It's what we are substituting food for that makes us fat.  I wasn't one of those people but now I know why I yo yo diet and couldn't keep the weight off.  I must say I'm feeling good right now realizing one of the reasons is I have been eating when I'm lonely. 

     We went to Culver's after church because we let my husband pick.  My daughter & I sat and waited while my husband ate a boat of ice-cream.  It looked really good but that is not a tempting food for me.  My daughter on the other hand loves ice-cream so it was harder for her.  I said to her take one spoonful just to get the satisfaction out of the way and it worked.  That's all she needed and she was just fine.  I'm telling you it feels so good to not let food consume me!!

I finally did it, I put a picture of my daughter Rachel below.  That is the weight she wants to get to again.

Below is a picture of my husband Ken, daughter Rachel and myself.  I hate fat pictures so this is huge for me to be able to post a picture.  Of course I have now lost 14 lbs so I look better but I realize I need a before and an after of me.